THE Nth power
(Category: short story)
By Rabespierre
03/31/2009
There were many times in my life that I keep on wondering if there is really a GOD
out there. Many time I had seen myself alone and miserable. I never hurt anybody
but I always end up being beaten up. I tried to be a loyal friend but I always get
betrayed. I learned to love somebody and that somebody never respected me.
Most often, love is confused with infatuation. There were times that I believe Love
is just a word that fools invented to deceive other people like me. Life is so
lonely, why should I bother to live. Other people say I am useless. I brought bad
luck to my family. I am not as brilliant as my siblings or even as smart as my
cousins. My self-esteem is zero. I do not know what to do with my life. I do not
know where to go. Walk…. Walk….. walk… One mile, 2 miles, 3 miles until I no
longer knew how far I have gone. I just found myself inside the church. It’s so
quiet… so peaceful… There are people praying and choir singing. Their prayer
and singing are music to my ears. I suddenly feel better. Serenity seems to be
within me. I have never gone to church for a long time and has forgotten how to
pray the apostle’s creed. Funny I don’t even know if this is a Catholic or Christian
or a Baptist church. I just know that I find tranquility in this place. Suddenly my
eyelids cover my eyes and out came some crystal liquids. Tears of joy I said to
myself. I no longer feel miserable nor pain inside me. I stayed there for hours in
silence. A few more moments and I opened my eyes. I feel better for some
reason. Was it because I got some rest? Was it the beautiful singing of the choir?
NO I told myself. I feel better because I am in the house of our Loving FATHER.
Like all parents, HE only wants his children to have the best. I need to listen to
HIM to be in a better place. But how? I knelt down and while I am about to ask for
guidance, I saw a big bold letter that say ‘TAKE ME HOME’. The answer is in front
of me- Of course The Bible! With the Bible in my hand, I start to trace my way back
to my home. It was almost 11:00 in the evening and 200 feet from our home when I
saw my loving mother and father running toward me. Without a word, they
embrace me. They were so worried that something bad came about to me. I am so
blinded with the false love of my so called friends and peers that I never realize I
am so lucky to have caring parents. Inside our home, my brothers and sisters
started to ask questions like where have I been? Who was with me? What am I
thinking? Questions that I will usually answered back with rage. But this time, I see
these questions as concerned questions with love attached to it. I see things
clearer now after that visit to our Loving Father’s house.
Everything changed for the better when I realize that God is love and Love is God.
He never leaves us. THANK YOU LORD…..THANK YOU LORD….. THANK YOU
LORD…LORD FROM NOW ON I OFFER TO YOU MY LIFE…
(Category: short story)
By Rabespierre
03/31/2009
There were many times in my life that I keep on wondering if there is really a GOD
out there. Many time I had seen myself alone and miserable. I never hurt anybody
but I always end up being beaten up. I tried to be a loyal friend but I always get
betrayed. I learned to love somebody and that somebody never respected me.
Most often, love is confused with infatuation. There were times that I believe Love
is just a word that fools invented to deceive other people like me. Life is so
lonely, why should I bother to live. Other people say I am useless. I brought bad
luck to my family. I am not as brilliant as my siblings or even as smart as my
cousins. My self-esteem is zero. I do not know what to do with my life. I do not
know where to go. Walk…. Walk….. walk… One mile, 2 miles, 3 miles until I no
longer knew how far I have gone. I just found myself inside the church. It’s so
quiet… so peaceful… There are people praying and choir singing. Their prayer
and singing are music to my ears. I suddenly feel better. Serenity seems to be
within me. I have never gone to church for a long time and has forgotten how to
pray the apostle’s creed. Funny I don’t even know if this is a Catholic or Christian
or a Baptist church. I just know that I find tranquility in this place. Suddenly my
eyelids cover my eyes and out came some crystal liquids. Tears of joy I said to
myself. I no longer feel miserable nor pain inside me. I stayed there for hours in
silence. A few more moments and I opened my eyes. I feel better for some
reason. Was it because I got some rest? Was it the beautiful singing of the choir?
NO I told myself. I feel better because I am in the house of our Loving FATHER.
Like all parents, HE only wants his children to have the best. I need to listen to
HIM to be in a better place. But how? I knelt down and while I am about to ask for
guidance, I saw a big bold letter that say ‘TAKE ME HOME’. The answer is in front
of me- Of course The Bible! With the Bible in my hand, I start to trace my way back
to my home. It was almost 11:00 in the evening and 200 feet from our home when I
saw my loving mother and father running toward me. Without a word, they
embrace me. They were so worried that something bad came about to me. I am so
blinded with the false love of my so called friends and peers that I never realize I
am so lucky to have caring parents. Inside our home, my brothers and sisters
started to ask questions like where have I been? Who was with me? What am I
thinking? Questions that I will usually answered back with rage. But this time, I see
these questions as concerned questions with love attached to it. I see things
clearer now after that visit to our Loving Father’s house.
Everything changed for the better when I realize that God is love and Love is God.
He never leaves us. THANK YOU LORD…..THANK YOU LORD….. THANK YOU
LORD…LORD FROM NOW ON I OFFER TO YOU MY LIFE…
